 “Why are you so stressed out, you need to learn how to relax.” I can not count on my hands how many times I have heard that come from my husband or a family members mouth. I have severe anxiety, some bouts of depression and yes, I am constantly stressed out. After my body has totally had it, I usually end up spending a good week of trying to de-stress (failing miserably) and trying to figure out what is wrong with me. Finally, I have come to this conclusion, HECK YES I’M STRESSED, and theres nothing I can do about it.
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Lisa
7/20/2017 05:29:14 am
Just ended up on your blog on a little rabbit trail but have a feeling God intended me to see this post. Hope I can encourage you, though I'm sure its things you already know.
Rachael Behnke
8/8/2017 10:07:24 pm
Unbelievable... And I read your post about people pleasers. We are seriously like twins, and have the same thinking patterns. The post about your husband telling you "no", I can't help. Yes, that too. My husband says the same and I used to think of how selfish and rude and terrible of him because he gets annoyed at me, you know his delivery is harsh. We've been together around the same amount of time. And loving Jesus, yes that too, but surely not trusting Him enough to know He's in control. And, a few months back, I read a post with a picture of your living room, how messy it gets, and raising kids. Someone commented, "you're too hard on yourself". I started watching you more after thar because I've been told that so many times in my life. I feel like NO one gets me. But, I know there is someone out there like me now. Hey, so you have adhd? I think I have it too... I forget things all the time, get caught up in small details. Obsess over things... JESUS is definitely the answer, but I'm thankful for your blog now. I'm THE same, think about cancer, stress over the kids getting sick constantly (I have 3 boys under 7), but anyway. I recently started using oils, but a different brand. I spend too much money on organic food, and can not fund my obsessions. I'm a stay at home mom because I dont trust anyone with my kids, but I'm not consistent on anything. They struggle with that. I don't want them to make the choices I made, so I attempt to control them and teach them things beyond their ability to comprehend. I'm probably passing on my anxiety, but yes... BE STILL, and know that He is God. I NEED TO MEDITATE ON THIS (If I can handle it and not get too bored). Maybe I can do it in different settings, or with different clothes on. I need to consistently change things up 😂. Anyway, my husband is super predictable, very boring, but I hope he is not still an idol for me. I think I made him one at first because when I think of losing him, I freak out. I don't know how I would do life without him. I am not good at setting boundaries. People just used me in the past, and even knowing things were wrong, I just went along with almost anything. I want to be able to make an income that could support me so I could set more boundaries, and not be scared. I have had several jobs, not one more than 2 years, and that was because I had a lot of freedom and was getting promoted like crazy until I crashed, and couldn't handle it for one second longer. I just checked out completely. I would love to just do a menial job that could allow me to obsess and think, but I wonder if God gave me kids to challenge me? And, beyond this, I know I have potential to do God's work on BIG ways. I had a plan, but I need to step out there. No, one has ever gotten me, but what am I so afraid of? Rejection??? Yes!!! Okay, but if God accepts me and gives provision, what else do I need?!
Brittnee
8/18/2017 09:31:12 pm
This makes my heart fill with so much joy. I truly love that you are able to relate and find peace in my stories. I really strive to put my heart on the line in hopes that others can find some comfort that they aren't alone. Thank you for following me. Leave a Reply. |
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